it is five years tomorrow morning and I am pissed…I cannot believe I am pissed off big time…..I am in love with my Colonel but it is so freaking unfair that a good man was struck down by Agent Orange and Cancer….I am loved by my Colonel but I feel it is wrong that Rob did not get to finish what he wanted….he may have finished what God wanted…..but I am pissed..I want to cry and it just doesn’t seem to be there…..the tears. you know……five freaking years ago I got up knowing the time was near…..I sent my daughter on to church and told my granddaughter not to come..he was quiet this morning..take a break kids, come later today…..I told him it was just him and me…it was ok, I told him it was Sunday, July first, 2007 and it was ok….he left and dang I had to call the kids who were doing their various Sunday stuff, church, shopping, resting and they all had to come back…I am pissed and may be forever…and to top it off the second would have been our anniversay…..29 yrs..