I wish I believed in Heaven
or in things I cannot see
I wish I believed in anything
that might just comfort me
 
I wish I could find a reason
to make sense of this Hell
The memories, pictures, moments
or the way you used to smell
 
But all of it leaves me empty
We will never complete our song
And you are just a dead guy now
and everything is Gone
 

They tell me you are here with me
that our love will never die
but I dont feel you anywhere
Its all a great big lie

What happens to the promises
the vows we made for life
My favorite thing to say out loud
was that I was your Wife

Where do all our dreams go
the things we can never do
None of it means anything
Not if I dont have you

I dont know how to do this
You took away my Why
If I cant share my life with you
I think Id rather die

But I wont push that button
Because now I know that pain
they shouldnt have to wonder
whether MY death was in vain

I guess I’ll keep on living
even though I’m not Alive
You were robbed of life so young
and now I must survive

Growing old without you
A marriage that stands still
The family only in my mind
A love thats forced to chill

I will never be the same girl
This will never be okay
You are gone forever
Just get me through today.

 

 

A poem by Kelley Lynn; a comedian, writer, and recent widow. To see more writing pieces, blogs, and stories about the brutal, hilarious truth of losing your husband, go to www.ripthelifeiknew.com